
You got your passion,
You got your pride,
But don't you know that
only fools are satisfied,
Dream on,
But don't imagine they'll all come true...

WOW! It has been forever since I last posted. I'm sorry for those of you who casually read this (I don't have any die-hard fans as of yet). But I have decided to take a break from The JACK Journal. Have you looked outside!? ...okay I live in Oregon, it's raining...but, besides this morning, it has been gorgeous!!! No sane person should be kept inside posting entries that no one is going read. You know why no one is going to read it? Because everyone is outside! Having a terrific time gallivanting around in the sun. So I'm not going to be writing as much. Occasionally when inspiration strikes I might jot down a quick post - but don't count on it. There are way too many adventures and "missions" to partake in now that my girls are back from God-Knows-Where. So i'm leaving to work out at T-hill and then go off and frolic. Have a great summer everyone! 
-Belle
Quick post before I go to bed. I'm sorry I haven't written in a while. I was in the process of getting a membership at Timberhill and working. I've been working a TON! So, if you ever looking for me on the weekends, go to Carmike because i'm basically guaranteed to be there. Luckily, I'm raking in the cash. All of that is going to Victoria's Secret. Leigh and I are going shopping. Yes!! Too bad none of you boys will be seeing it
Sorry loves. Anyways, yes, I went to the Rave and no, I'm not telling you anything about it because there are NO words to describe the feeling of being there. I was drunk but sober - I wasn't high, but most assuredly high on life. I walked into Oddsfellows with my hair straight and a wife-beater on...I walked out of the club with my hair curly and wet (like I'd just gotten out of the shower) and half a scrap of white fabric tied in a knot. Went from the Rave to the Sports Park to play in a soccer game - bad idea. I was dying from dehydration, literally stumbling. But so good, so good. I would live it over a million times. However, my classes are now taking up a lot of my time. That and work - with Starwars and Madagascar (which I saw tonight with Jay Moore, nice kid) we've been packed. But on Tuesdays and Thursday, Andrea and I go out to Avery and sunbathe. One of the best female bondings in the world. I learned my lesson about sunburns early this year. Painting windows for 6 hours taught me the cruel rule of wearing sunscreen. I'm a black woman now. Most def hurting though. I'm going to have the worst tan lines! I gotta get in shape for swimsuit season too. I'm a little behind on that since it was almost 100 on Thursday and we drove around in sports bras. But i'm working on getting in shape, took the first step, and got a membership to Timberhill. You'll see me there with Katy, Courtney, and Andrea now. At least 4 days a week. I'm gonna be a beast. But right now I gotta go to bed so i don't pass out working my 8 hours shift tomorrow. Ugh, night.
-Belle
At 12:20pm on Sunday the 15th, Anne Kassman was officially pronounced dead. She died of complications early in the morning by stuffing frosted twisty donuts down her throat. This alone would have not killed her. But the combination of 2 1/2 hours of dancing, a pool party (drama included), a killer breakfast, and a Kung Fu movie did her in. The funeral for Anne is yet to be announced. It has to be sometime after next Saturday because she is going up to Portland to party and then going to Ikaika's rave at Oddsfellow hall. Yeah...that's about it. No i'm kidding! Of course I'm going to tell you about Prom. So did the whole getting ready thing. In fact when the boys arrived at my house around 6ish I was still prancing around in my underwear. God I love getting ready at my house - everyone loves my mom! Then we did pictures and what not and headed to dinner at Phil's. His dad is so funny (he's british). I thought Katy was going to choke, she was laughing so hard. Afterwards we went straight to the dance. Unfortunately, Andrea had to go back to her house for a 3rd time because she forgot her tickets. She forgot everything! Her tickets, her rose-thinger, her jewelry, and something else I can't remember. When we got into Ashbrook I was really confused because I didn't know a single person there...the dance was filled with CV kids and sophomores. WTF. But once it got filled up (and boy was it packed!) it was a blast. In fact it got so full that they had to ask all the juniors to go down to the first floor to dance because we were shaking the roof! Safety hazards and all that. But we were like fuck that and pissed all the seniors off by staying upstairs. Monica was hilarious, just screaming "June 9th mother fuckers!" I love her. Phil got mad because I was *cough* ditching him to go dance with Monica and Weller. I'm sorry I am not required to hand over my ass to you for the entire dance. Jesus it was pissing me off. But no worries, Prom was still good. All of my ladies looked gorgeous! And Monica I loved your cleavage and Lydia, nice nude colored condom. Afterwards, every junior headed over to Monica's for a pool party. I wanted to go swimming but it started to rain unfortunately. Brr. Drama with Colin happened and poor Curtis had to leave as well - srry bud. Later we went over to Lyd's new house and had a phatty breakfast. Not only was the food really good, but the party was good because everyone was talking and such. We were bonding! Yah for the 06 class! That lasted until about 3am, then we took a bunch of kids and went back to my house to watch Kung Fu Hustle. I need to watch it again today because I was too tired to remember what the hell it was about. Really random was about all I got. Had to drop the ladies off at their respected houses and pick up breakfast for the boys. Who were dicks and ditched me before I came back, hence the dying from eating all of the donuts myself, and left my house completely trashed. Thanks guys. No worries, I took them over to feed Jake and Jer. Awkwardly, Jeremy was still in bed with Paula....yeah. So basically I gave Jake some donuts and sped off. (three little words Andrea, three little words). And now, I am grounded until my house is spotless. So no chance in me leaving the grounds for today. Sorry if you wanted to chill. I'm going to go pass out now before I start on my work. Call me to say hi!
-Annie

I am actually still pumped on a Monday about it. So here's about it: unfortunately Friday plans for my party fell through (Thanks Nick.) but we ended up pulling an all-nighter over at John's house. Which ended up being a blast anyways! But firstly, I don't know John. Secondly, a ton of 05's came over to my house before we went, so I brought them with me. Thirdly, he has the biggest house known to man. Absolutely the best house to party in - complete with grand piano. There were a couple people there I knew, including Steve. (Sorry about the 05's behavior Steve- I had nothing to do with it, promise!) But mainly I was a newbie. Met a cool kid called Marcus - hope your experiment for psycology went well
Complete with a shit load of candles and champange bubble bath. John was our bitch. Yes! Then, when we finally got out, we crashed...or at least I tried to! However, I was sharing a bed with Weger and John and...you know the rest. Woke up early and coached my little girls. We won - rock on! Second game in a row. Then did chores and celebrated Daddy's birthday before I went up to Portland with Mike, Daniel, Tyler, Lydia, and Andrea. And this weekend was all about that night. We visited Tyler's dad, Bill, and then headed off to a club called The Zone in Burnside. Passing about 3X the amount of cops residing in Corvallis.
Ahh. By the way, driving through downtown Portland is confusing as HELL. All one way streets and tons of traffic - both cars and peds. I mean, it was Cinco de Mayo - hordes of Mexicans were out and about!
They even had a carnival set up for it which looked pretty phat. But finally we got to the parking garage and had to shell out ten bucks (everything is so expensive up there) and walked our asses to the club. Once we got there, we gave the bouncer our id's, paid another ten, got stamped, and walked right into the WILDEST place i've ever seen. Need to mention here: There is NO dress code, except that guys have to wear their hats straight - some gang thing, meh. So this turned out to be the most dirty, scandalous, exciting club ever.
I think Lydia, Andrea, and I were the most "pure" looking girls there. All the lights in the club are black lights so your stamp (which i had all over my body - thanks Lyd) glows. The VIP tables are covered in white netting. There is a bar, dj booth, pool tables, air hockey, videogames, and a multilevel dance floor. Which the black crowd dominated on the upper level. The other girls were too pussy to go up there with me. I needed Monica. Club opened at 10pm and closed about 3am, we however left around 1:30am to go back to John's house in town. I had the best night ever. Driving back was a little worried, but we found our way home so no biggie.
Even though we almost ran outta gas. Don't really remember much about John's the second time. I passed out because I had to get up at the crack of dawn to take Tyler home and go to work. Super....not. I was falling asleep at the counter all day. Got off at 5pm and made my mommy Sweet n' Sour Asian Chicken for Mother's Day.
I didn't burn it! Hung out with the fam for the rest of the evening where I proceeded to get incredibly sick. Guess I pushed myself too hard because I'm at home writing this when I should be in math. Too bad Kiersky!
On Monday after school, Andrea, Katy, and I got together and came up with this brilliant plan: We were going to film the most retarded, most funny, most random video ever to ask three CV boys to our prom. So we gathered our shit, bought props at the Dollar Store and headed to Porter Park to film this ish. We had some help from the Blazin' AZN as our Techie, while Hottie Nick and Crazy Kyle watched. We fell out of trees, ran around the Highland traffic circle, pole-danced in the Albertson's parking lot, and investigated the Woodstocks' bathroom, etc, etc. Overall it was an incredible experience. And if i might say so myself, quite creative idea. I mean hell they said yes! I'm glad. Going to prom single would have sucked balls - not that thats a bad thing...but it would have been pretty lame. Yeah my mind's in the gutter. I gotta go Phil's here to keep me company. See ya'll tomorrow.
-Belle
This song is my life, verse for verse...
Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
You are still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you
Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right
You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you...
-Billy Joel
Just a quick post before I head off to bed. I've got work tomorrow - bright and early. Um...went camping on Thursday. Turned out a little different than I thought it was going to go. We'll leave it as an awkward but an enjoyable experience. Hung out with some cool new kids from CV. Well, they were new to me. Sam is gonna take me wakeboarding. More like I'll sit on the dock and watch. That kid can do the most intense tricks on a trampoline I have ever seen. I don't think I have the balls to pull some of that shit off. By the way, I had two performances this weekend for Oregon Dance. The first night went horrible. The techs didn't know what they were doing and made tons of mistakes during our number. However, they finally got the hang of it on Saturday. And even though the crowd was considerably smaller they still got into our piece. Hopefully everyone enjoyed it. There has really been a ton of emo episodes this weekend. Especially with family. Now i'm just chilling at home, trying to find something to do. It's really weird...and kinda sad, that I can't just call up Steve and be like, "what are we doing tonight?". Plus none of "our" friends want to hang out with me anymore. And all of my new CV buds are out at prom. Hope your having a great time guys. I wanna hear all about it Wegs! Llamame.
-Belle
Shit this week has been OFF THE WALL! I'd go into it, but it's confusing and really not something that should be written on here. I know that I'd just be opening up a can of worms. We'll just leave it as, Steve and I are no longer going to be friends......or talking, or even be seen together. Whether it be at school or anywhere else. His feelings are probably still raw, along with the side of his face. Anyways, enough bitter comments. This last weekend was fun. I went to Helen's surprise party on Friday and then hung out with the WR's. There was some drama that night involving Monica's mom spying on us, overhearing our "sexual" conversation, and us being lectured until 2am about how we were not mentally, physically, and spiritually ready. HA! This coming from the mother who had drank a bit too much and who's daughter is a S.T.A.R.S. Member. But no worries. After the initial shock that she was actually scolding us we argued right back. Then on Saturday I had my little girl's soccer game (we lost...again) and went out to breakfast with Tommy - yah! Later on that night I went out to dinner with Lydia and Jane at Marzinis and headed out to the Scandy's 18th B-Day Party. Which was crazy outta control! There were tons of stuff to do there. And our mad techno party was exciting - minus there was so much fog we couldn't breathe. Made me want to have another party....hmmm 4 day weekend. I wanna be known as the nice girl who throws the tightest parties. So Monica and I have been brainstorming ideas for fantastic get-togethers. Beach parties, slip n' slide day, bbq's. Ya'll should post me more thoughts. I'm looking for stuff to keep me occupied because I'm single! After a long 2.5 years! I gotta find myself all over again. Wait till we head down to Mexico Mo!
-Belle 
This weekend was the definition of a "sit back n' chill" weekend. And boy did I need it! It's almost over but as i'm sitting here naked, smothered in smelly lotion, i'm in heaven. So on friday after school I hung out with Tommy, Sam, and Andrea and we had a royally good time. After that I went out to dinner at Red Robin with the girls (Monica, Helen, and Chloe) and ate SO MUCH. I was waddling back to the car. We chilled at my house for a bit and some crazy Philomath boys came over, it was okay. I was super excited to go see Sin City at 10:35 but when we got there our tickets were missing! So I chilled with Blackburn until the WRs got outta their show and we headed over to the dorms to play mad foosball. That was probably the best part of my night! ...or at least the second best. Stayed up pretty late watching a movie called Labyrinth. Basically it was made to make David Bowie's package look absolutely huge. But it was cool and I enjoyed it. I needed to be home by 10am the next morning, but i totally forgot to set my alarm. Uh oh. However, i'm lucky and I woke up at 9:43. Saved my life. Coached my little girls game (we lost - sad) but then spent the rest of the day shopping with my mommy, which was a blast! Got tons of clothing and had a claustrophobic episode in Hollister. That part wasn't so fun. You'll all see my hella tight green converse shoes on Monday. So basically this weekend was to lay back, have fun, and spoil myself. Thank god I didn't have to work. I'm feeling better already. Peace all!
-yessss....lotion.-Jenna